okay my goal is to start my story by friday but in more important news..

IVE COME UP WITH MY CONCENTRATION!!!!

it's gonna be about reflections of people and how they see themselves. it should be deep

Yay! Nanowrimo kicks off at midnight!!!!!

wow, time sure does fly, though i feel like i've been in school forever already!
took psat, feeling okay about it..
been busy doing artsy things, as suspected AP art is extremely demanding but fun ^_^

im loaded with homework, everyday! and i cant slack in anything without feeling horrible afterwards so i havent a lot of time at all to do all that i WANT to do YET ive decided to take on >>> NANOWRIMO!

im going to write a 50,000 word novel this november (which means approximately 1,667 words per day)! until the 1st of, im planning, developing characters and a plot. im thinking i'll write a mystery..im still deciding...

i think everyone with even a hint of imagination should try it with me!!




well i havent talked to anybody on here for a long time, HOW'S LIFE BEEN, PEOPLES!?!?

the first day back was GREAT, i cant believe it. thankfully there were NO mistakes on my schedule:

1. AP English III
2. Health
3. AP US History
4. PreAP Physics
5. AP 2-D Studio Art Design!!!!
6. "AP" French IV
7. PreAP PreCalculus

SUPER SUPER HAPPY! the only classes im not thrilled about are health(but thats a given), physics(cuz ive got a crappy seat in the back next to distracting people), & now FRENCH.

we lost both our french teachers last year & the new guy they hired (who's FROM FRANCE so thats cool) is old & doesnt seem to know what Advanced Placement is about, which is NOT good as far as the AP exam is concerned, the class i suspect will be a piece of cake(easy 6pt GPA ). theres only 4 people in the class which would have made this good but now im not so sure...he's nice and all but....*sigh*

AP ART IS HEAVEN!!!
its 5th period, the LONGEST period of the day(an hour & a half) because of lunch (of which there are 4). therefore, i spend more time in there but also because IM NOT GONNA HAVE TO TAKE A STUPID LUNCH PERIOD!! IN FACT ITS DISCOURAGED TO!!! & its a small class with only dedicated people! no goofoffs, & im the ONLY junior! i feel so special

apparently its gonna be hard work. especially because im both SLOW & LAZY. apparently over the year im gonna have to create around 24 pieces for the portfolio due in may(a task the teacher admitts is hard & commonly not completed). plus, THIS IS NOT MY ONLY AP CLASS..

US HISTORY WILL ALSO BE KICKING MY BUTT THIS YEAR!
i STILL have yet to complete the summer reading & the test is next friday, sure i'll have it finished by then BUT im taking this as a bad way to start the year, especially since im already recieving OTHER homework readings!

*HUGE SIGH*


nevermind it all, im excited for this year, the pluses outweigh the negatives.. the teachers are nice, classmates arent horrible...


#1 PROBLEM OF THE MOMENT - WHAT SHOULD MY ART CONCENTRATION BE!?!?!?!?!?

i went shopping for school clothes today so im feeling pretty good(unusual for me, i shopping usually stresses me out).
ive still got about 40 pages of the us history textbook to read & take notes over before school starts(mon.aug.24 btw)...

per usual, im excited but nervous. especially so since i wont get my schedule until the first day in homeroom *curses*

i feel a failure, there were sooooo many things id promised myself id do this summer that i didnt & it really was the last free summer i expect to have(im guessing). ive not been inspired to do anything artsy. NOT GOOD. me thinks ap art is gonna be a trial, im just not inspired...(honestly, i feel like having a schedule change/wont happen tho....)

ive felt a lot of changes coming over me, not in maturation or wisdom, but questions. i find myself doubting everything i thought i knew about myself...im scared about whats gonna happen after high school, i dont know what i want to do... the universities i want to go to seem so far out of reach, both finacially & as far getting in...the real problem lies in my not know what i want to get my degree in...

i realize i may be being unrealistic about the future paths im contemplating at the moment, but its hard to tell if im being unreasonable or if I am really the only thing thats holding me back...


I NEED ANSWERS. I NEED TO KNOW HOW TO FIND THESE ANSWERS.